I used to be an obsessive watcher of the L Word, back when I was with Aubrie. We’d giddily watch the episode as soon as we could. We’d obsess over the characters. Even last year, when we were still dating, we were super into it even though the third season was terrible. And now I am watching the fourth season. Without someone to spur me on, it’s taken me almost two months after the start of the show to get to episode three. And it just sucks. It’s terrible.

The writing is bad, and the actors don’t even seem to want to be there. My only impression was that Helena looked hot with those funny things in her hair. Even watching Max on screen is painful. Without someone to spur me on, I am completely skeptical and incredulous of basically anything that happens on this show. and I don’t even know why i’m watching it. Perhaps out of nostalgia or a misplaced hope for something actually hot to happen on the show. Perhaps because I think it might be something that it’s not. Perhaps because I feel almost obligated. I’m a lesbian, so I must want to watch a lesbian show.

I think that last one really hits the nail on the head. I hate feeling obligated, hate feeling as if my sexual orientation means anything besides itself. In a way, I subscribe to the post-gay philosophy on this, if only in aspiration. I think sexual orientation should be nothing special. It’s not something that makes you different from the rest of the world. Being gay doesn’t make you a special flower. It’s just something else, like hair color, or body type, or the way you speak. It’s different than what other people have, it might get you made fun of in some places, but it shouldn’t make a difference. We’re not there yet. We won’t be there for a while. But I think we should want to be there. Remove that category, you know.

That being said, a lot of activism still has to happen. We need full marriage rights.

Finally, the L Word makes me a little sad. It’s not something I readily discuss, but I’m not having sex right now and I do miss it. On the L Word, everyone has sex all the time and has no real trouble getting a date, and I think that’s probably depressing to a lot of people. Me, I just wish there was some chick like the teacher’s assistant Nadia. She’s hot. and forward. But it must be super depressing for some closeted, discriminated against chick in nebraska who’s watching the show on her computer cause her parents can’t know she watches it. That must suck.

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21. I spent a good deal of time at work today discussing french politics with an elderly belgian man. He doesn’t think much of Segolene Royal.

22. I don’t really think I would have cut it in a Ph.D program. I know so much less than I thought I did.

23. I am fascinated by the idea, but not the reality of horrid things. Case in point: incest fanfic, Joel-Peter Witkin. In reality, I couldn’t deal with those things. But on the screen, I am fascinated.

24. I have long wanted to get laser hair removal.

25. When I entered college, I was for men’s rights as well as women’s rights, didn’t believe in affirmative action, and was against partial-birth abortion. Now, I think that there’s no such thing as discrimination against men in America, I am firmly for affirmative action and for abortion on demand. I took a total of 1 women’s studies class.

26. I do not really support the troops.

27. All my peripherals are named after Norse gods.

28. When I was 12, I had three posters of Derek Jeter in my room, just to convince people that I thought he was hot.

29. I haven’t shaved my legs in two months.

30. I will secretly hold grudges for years. I enjoy my anger.

No bonus today, boys and girls. Actually, wait. There have been naked pictures of an under 18 me on the internet. That’s my last tidbit. I don’t think there are any now. I was a 15 year old with a webcam. it’s a dangerous place to be.

11. I had basically the same hair style for my entire life, save for a four year interlude from ages 7-11. Now, however, I part it on the side.

12. I am greatly influenced by events and people that I deride at the time. Such as: Mr. Blank, my high school english teacher, the foppish professor at Middlesex University and my mother.

13. The first cd I ever owned was by Barbara Streisand. The second was by Miami Sound Machine. The first one I actually bought was by Ace of Base.

14. My maternal grandmother only has about eight teeth left.

15. I am a sock afficianado. I love socks, will sleep naked with socks on and will keep socks on during sex.

16. Even if a girl is attractive, if she is heavily involved in theatre, I am extremely turned off.

17. I get cold really easily.

18. In retrospect, many of my prepubescent close friendships were just indications of lesbianism.

19. I enjoy shooting rifles. I am a suprisingly good shot.

20. I can never resist laughing at other people’s misfortune, when they are not friends and especially when they brought it upon themselves.

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